Hey there, just came back 2 days ago, well it seems that I can't change the fact of how people  keep to remain their own way here in S_______. I didn't want to be here actually, I want to go overseas to study, and I've only been told suddenly I'm not allowed to go overseas only last year. Maybe its wrong to rant out here, but it seems to me that I'm not appreciated in what I do. The extra effort & carefulness may not be visible to the eyes of others. I'm so sorry to say this but this is what I feel. And even I tried to stay in this country for two days, just hoping I can meet up with people & have fun, reality is no one is free to entertain me. Thanks. I have to stay in here for another 3 years before I can actually go overseas. Everyday I'm only living in delusion, hoping that time can at least pass much much extra fast, so the next thing I open my eyes, I would be already in a place that I would be appreciated, understood, and never will want to keep writing such negativity in my mind. Well, I hope everyone here is happy, maybe because I'm just not the kind ready to be here.