Riciaz

NEW SEMESTER, NEW NEEDS

Hi there,,, the new semester has started... It's been quite fast, SEMESTER 4!!! Today is the SECOND day of school... Only had 2 hours of class and we're off!! I went to meet Eng Peng after school and had a fulfilling lunch at Hotpot culture, Marina Square. Its rather worth it. $16 per person. We had kimchi steamboat, 2 sides, 2 barley drinks and 2 scoops of ice cream....

Afterwards we went to Bugis and I bought a new pair of shoe there! I've been wanting a new shoe for a long time since I first knew my H&M shoe was falling apart bit by bit... I've actually thought of getting creepers by Underground or the H&M shoes... Anyways I want something that has a base of around 4cm because I'm short you see, but too bad I won't reveal my height here...

But anyways, I got my new shoe already, I LOVE, REALLY LOVE THE MATERIAL.

And talking about the new semester, my mom bought me a new wallet from Michael Kors,, thanks MOM! It's simple and its hunter green. Such a beautiful colour! I have this biased side towards the colour green you see... * APPRECIATES * She also bought for me this Marc Jacobs DOT perfume!!!!! Said it was for my birthday... I feel that this much is enough already, tomorrow will be the last day I spend on my needs, I gotta promise this. I only need to get one item tomorrow, and that's the final one.... Need to control myself. There's no end to shopping you see, fellow ladies...

With all these new stuff I got, I should use this as an encouragement for me to work harder for this semester.... I'm scared,,, even more because I just knew recently that GPA is accumulative... So far, we already received our assignments... We have to do a photojournal, as in magazine type.. I CAN'T, HAVEN'T THINK OF A TOPIC!! IF YOU WANT TO HELP ME... PLEASE SUPPLY ME WITH IDEAS in the COmment box... If anyone actually reads my blog anyways... Anyways,,, if anyone did, thanks. And if there's none, I just gotta wreck my brains upside down and my money out to try and work things out.

I guess I may be posting more often this time... AND HOORAY TO A REST, on packaging... I was too tired and bored to keep cutting and scoring the grey board last semester..

All rights, that's it for now. Hope someone will read my blog,, at least... please :]

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Ayo what's up. Been really a long while. My last post was Novemner last year? Oh man, guessed I really didn't feel like blogging since I'm addicted to watching dramas every now and then.

2012. Life's changed. ALOT. Now that I officially started work, not in the office or anyth close to that, I just woked to fill up my time. To say, they haven't paid me last month's pay. Moving on, so yeah I got two jobs since Feb. Worked like I'm some kind of machine. Not resting enough everyday.

Furthermore I've started school, and the amount of work and thinking that has to be done is crazy. It's difficult for me to handle 2 jobs and school, but no one really know how difficult, frustrated, tired I was. I was stressed out, for real. Guess that I have to rely on myself all the time. I didn't do my best, no I rephrase, I couldn't do my best for school because I kept working. I can't stop even I want to.

One of the jobs doesn't allow me to stop. And that's how I ended up flunking all my schoolwork.

Especially now it has come to the point that the class is separated into Communication Design (CD) & Visual Merchandising (VM), every part of it is weird. I don't know why, some people may find it this way or they don't think so. I just find that the lecturer's are so caught up in this new Visual Merchandising sub-course thing that they look down on us CD people. We're all still part of the big family of Visual Communication, so stop treating us so differently. We were all in the same class last year. Fair & square.

Just sincerely wish I can get this faster get over with and focus on my studies again.

3 years long course, I better make sure all these time staying back in Singapore is worth it.

Because I can't stand studying, if my father had allowed me to go overseas that time, I would have entered university by now. All my country friends are all overseas. Can't u feel the amount of pressure I have?

Because of all the things that has occurred, the stress I felt, cut my fringe away, and now it has turned into bangs.

Everything felt so irritable, I'm angry at myself but others angered me more.

Whatever it is, I'm trying my best.

Quite a fiery blogpost, its too bad you have to read this, since I can't vent my anger and disappointment anywhere else.

---- Guess that I haven't really finished what I wanna say, there's too much I wanna rant out.
Well today's supposingly Vesak Day, felt very bad since I didn't visit the temple even I had the chance to. Just stayed at home... and chant and light up candles. It's my first time lighting up a candle using the stove puahhaahaa. I never did knew how to handle a matchstick or lighter cuz by 2 seconds I feel the fire burning to my skin. And that is why I can't cook. I'm scared of fire, THAT'S IT.
Sigh I really don't know what to do for myself.

ANOTHER THING I WANNA HIGHLIGHT.
I. AM NOT. FAKING AN ACCENT.
Had a presentation on Monday, so when I ended it, the lecturer asked me if I had gone to school overseas before. Well the answer is NO. But yet since young I'm taught by American/British teachers. Lorna Whiston during playgroup (2-3 yrs), and afterwards I had special English class taught by this green-eyed Ameican male teacher in pre-school (3-4 yrs). I think I moved to Singapore when I was 5 or 6 yrs old.
Even my secondary school English teacher asked during oral rehearsal, if I had studied in America before, and said to me don't try to fake an accent if you don't know how.
During my DPA period, the teacher also told me that maybe you have your accent because you came from Indonesia. But I lived my life here in Singapore for more than 10 years all right.
I normally speak like that, even when I'm ordering food. It just comes out naturally. It's just that I speak differently to my friends because that is not how u go socializing here. Everyone speaks with a mixture of English, Chinese, Hokkien, whatever weird language there is to say.

I don't need to hide. COME ON, just accept THE WAY I AM.

REMEMBER THAT.