Hi there, its the 7th week since school has started.
SEMESTER 5. THE FINAL YEAR.
And I'm still lost. My brain's not focusing in school, my body just doesn't feel motivated.
The attitude has changed, I don't even feel like doing work anymore... 
And I don't even get nervous when its the dateline for projects.
Something's madly wrong with me, and I don't know if I can still change for the better.

I realised that how I react to people changed too. 
I find it fun when it comes to dissing, which I know I'll never do in the past.
I guess that everything comes to the part where I don't even know who am I.

I feel that I'm losing my mind and...
for now, I only know that I can just drown together with this project. 

Hello, although the month of April hasn't end yet, but I want to write about what has happened throughout these times. First off, its my 2nd month of internship! Its so fast I didn't even feel that it has passed. The people there are really nice. But maybe its just me, I can't seem to find a way to talk to them... I want to,,, so badly cuz I'm so damn lonely... but I'm too shy... Today's the first day I stayed until 9 plus at the office.. My colleagues said that I''m the 1st intern to stay until so late. WELL,,, with an intern that's not so good with softwares, I'm always dragging time...

And the whole routine has changed so much from school days. During internship, once u step out of the office, that means stop whatever u think about work. U go home to get rest... and get up early in the morning to go for work again. I 'm still not used to this bcuz all along in school, you just think and do your work from day til night. There's no stopping.... But sigh, I really don't wanna go back school. My colleagues are just too nice I don't wanna leave them... I'm not even leaving yet but I already said I missed them.. Oh nooo....

Well now while I'm in internship, there's more chances to go out with people... which is good. Every Friday we'll have interns gathering... Doing various stuff. Mostly talking about what happens in school, and what we plan on doing when we're back in school... And yet I don't know if design is really what's good for me. I can't stand working looking at the computer screen from morning to evening everyday. It's too painful. I kept tearing up in the office..

All rights, I'm damn sleepy now.. Had woke up since 5am and reached home around 10pm today.. I'm going crazy... I need sleep. Bye!